last post?

dko alam kung eto na yung last post ko, maybe not, nalaman ko yung tungkol sa knya, about your baby to be sana? felt sad about it. i hope shes ok...
Natatawa ako parang 5 days straight na ata ako ngtetext sayo? hahhahha! la lang. tnxt pa kita ng "im getting married soon" sabi ko na eh dun ka lang mgrereply sa mga ganung text. hehe... i would want to get married pero no one has proposed to me yet. i just have the feeling na ikakasal na rin ako soon.
I shouldnt bother u anymore kasi kakapagod din hehe..

Now at least may bago ulit akong reason not to pursue this.. Its you and her.
Sorry nakulitan ka na cguro din.
Anyway i enjoyed ut hehe.. parang texting a ghost hehhee...
Lahat pla yun.. i mean it. I missed you and ang nakakatuwa jan.. araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos may nagpapaalalang bagay saken ng tungkol sayo! hahhaha
I should get used to it more... ksi i bet im going to experience this for a lifetime na. Im getting used to smiling alone. Minsan talking to myself din haha! Or even talking to the my ghost coldfish :)

Im letting go of you now again... for the Nth time.


You wont be receiving any text from me, kahit ym kahit ano. I promise that.

And i promise to tell you about this blog before i leave the country.

You'll be so missed babe.

Lamo i had an event sa cubao near araneta last month, puro ikaw at incubus naiisip ko. And how i wish you were there.


I had to confess dear. I was offended by your actions. The last time na nagkita tayo. I figured out you want to bring me to that same place, rather than just have a coffee and chat with me like the old sweet times.


I prefer that and i told you already di ba. I haf a thought that you just want that thing from me... Isnt that lame?!

hmm.. so much for the drama. Tapos na un.

I just thought you should know.

Cge po dito na muna mejo di nko ok eh hehe..

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di ko nasabi.. ksi we might see each other ulit dahil dun sa project... dko din alam eh.. pero today supposedly mgkikita tayo.. pero di ka nnman sumasagot sa text.. hay..

Last day

Tom... I will finally reveal this blog to you. Tom might be the last time na mgkita tayo.... Take care nget. I love you... Again, thank you sa lahat lahat...i'll never forget you. See you if fate permits.....

happy - happy

as we say dati.... happy-happy... today is happy happy day.. 1 year na din kung may bilang pa to..

how do i say this.

Im truly broken now. and i cant help thinking about u. but un nga super unreachable mo.


I miss you like i miss the beach... i feel so alive when im with you...

Look... i better feel this way. I dont want to use hatred to forget you. thats just lame.

so let me just think of u.. and dream of until my soul gets tired..

happy happy my dear...

I bet you are more than ok now. And thats great to know. :)

not suppose to love u

We agreed that it was over
Now the lines have all been drawn
The vows we made began to fade
But now they're gone
Put your pictures in a shoebox
And my gold ring in a drawer
I'm not supposed to love you anymore


Oh, I shouldn't care or wonder where and how you are
But I can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart
I'm fighting back emotions that I never fought before
'Cause I'm not supposed to love you anymore

Now I'm writing you this letter
And it's killing me tonight
That I agreed when you believed it wasn't right
And I couldn't sleep up on the bed
So I'm down here on the floor
Where I'm not supposed to love you anymore

I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before
'Cause I'm not supposed to love you anymore......





nakita kita ulit, nakasama ulit.. ang ultimate downer ko... ang sarap naman magdrama oh... pauwi dmo na hawak kamay ko. di tulad dati.. kahit gano ka trapik... namiss ko un.... anlayo mo din.. ramdam ko ur more than ok now... mejo nalungkot ako kasi dko magawa un minsan.. pano nman babalik ang sigla ko dati? sa work? hehe... eh nwala na nga sila eh.. pati ikaw nawala.. pati tayo...

it was nice seeing u again.. and it was hurting at the same time....

was it even real?

sakit nman nun... grabe nisip ko kahit para sa pagkakaibigan.. sana manlang nagreply ka. sbhin mo lang.. di ka pede di ka makaalis may lakad ka may gingwa ka... pero yung as in dedmanhin mo ko ng todo.. wow! parang kahit kaibigan dmo ko tinuring. Sakit nman tlga..... haaaay... pinatay mo pa both fones mo... sobrang kelangan kita knina.. ang galing nga eh.. pagdumadating yung mga ganung pgkaktaon na sobrang kelangan tlga kita... solid na wala ka din.. alam mo di nman ako umaasang maging tulad ka pa din ng dati.. pero ang sa kin lang umasa ksi ko na kahit papano kaibigan pa din kita at kahit papano concern ka pa din sa kin. Sobrang sakit lang ksi wala ka tlga pakialam... tama na nga to... tama na. Mula ngayon iiwasan na din kita ng todo. At hayaan mo... kahit masakit sa loob ko.. kahit hirap na hirap akong di ka isipin.. at di ka hanapin... Ok na to. Ayoko nga matapos nang ganito eh. Alam ko tapos na pero ayaw ko nang ganito yung magkakasakitan tayo ng matinde. Kasi ayaw ko magalit eh... Pero parang un ung gs2 mo mangyari. Ayus na to. Dapat ayos na to. kaw tlga... pinaiyak mo nnman ako...

haaaaaaay. di ko naisip kaya mo gawin sakin to.. parang napapaisip tuloy ako... kung totoo pa yung mga akala ko dati. Kung totoo ngang minahal mo ko. O baka natuwa ka lang....

again

goodmorning nget, naisip nanaman kita. kelan kita makakalimutan?
malabo na ata un. miss na miss na kita... alam mo ba un?

i hope ur happy now.