last post?

dko alam kung eto na yung last post ko, maybe not, nalaman ko yung tungkol sa knya, about your baby to be sana? felt sad about it. i hope shes ok...
Natatawa ako parang 5 days straight na ata ako ngtetext sayo? hahhahha! la lang. tnxt pa kita ng "im getting married soon" sabi ko na eh dun ka lang mgrereply sa mga ganung text. hehe... i would want to get married pero no one has proposed to me yet. i just have the feeling na ikakasal na rin ako soon.
I shouldnt bother u anymore kasi kakapagod din hehe..

Now at least may bago ulit akong reason not to pursue this.. Its you and her.
Sorry nakulitan ka na cguro din.
Anyway i enjoyed ut hehe.. parang texting a ghost hehhee...
Lahat pla yun.. i mean it. I missed you and ang nakakatuwa jan.. araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos may nagpapaalalang bagay saken ng tungkol sayo! hahhaha
I should get used to it more... ksi i bet im going to experience this for a lifetime na. Im getting used to smiling alone. Minsan talking to myself din haha! Or even talking to the my ghost coldfish :)

Im letting go of you now again... for the Nth time.


You wont be receiving any text from me, kahit ym kahit ano. I promise that.

And i promise to tell you about this blog before i leave the country.

You'll be so missed babe.

Lamo i had an event sa cubao near araneta last month, puro ikaw at incubus naiisip ko. And how i wish you were there.


I had to confess dear. I was offended by your actions. The last time na nagkita tayo. I figured out you want to bring me to that same place, rather than just have a coffee and chat with me like the old sweet times.


I prefer that and i told you already di ba. I haf a thought that you just want that thing from me... Isnt that lame?!

hmm.. so much for the drama. Tapos na un.

I just thought you should know.

Cge po dito na muna mejo di nko ok eh hehe..

?

di ko nasabi.. ksi we might see each other ulit dahil dun sa project... dko din alam eh.. pero today supposedly mgkikita tayo.. pero di ka nnman sumasagot sa text.. hay..

Last day

Tom... I will finally reveal this blog to you. Tom might be the last time na mgkita tayo.... Take care nget. I love you... Again, thank you sa lahat lahat...i'll never forget you. See you if fate permits.....

happy - happy

as we say dati.... happy-happy... today is happy happy day.. 1 year na din kung may bilang pa to..

how do i say this.

Im truly broken now. and i cant help thinking about u. but un nga super unreachable mo.


I miss you like i miss the beach... i feel so alive when im with you...

Look... i better feel this way. I dont want to use hatred to forget you. thats just lame.

so let me just think of u.. and dream of until my soul gets tired..

happy happy my dear...

I bet you are more than ok now. And thats great to know. :)

not suppose to love u

We agreed that it was over
Now the lines have all been drawn
The vows we made began to fade
But now they're gone
Put your pictures in a shoebox
And my gold ring in a drawer
I'm not supposed to love you anymore


Oh, I shouldn't care or wonder where and how you are
But I can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart
I'm fighting back emotions that I never fought before
'Cause I'm not supposed to love you anymore

Now I'm writing you this letter
And it's killing me tonight
That I agreed when you believed it wasn't right
And I couldn't sleep up on the bed
So I'm down here on the floor
Where I'm not supposed to love you anymore

I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before
'Cause I'm not supposed to love you anymore......





nakita kita ulit, nakasama ulit.. ang ultimate downer ko... ang sarap naman magdrama oh... pauwi dmo na hawak kamay ko. di tulad dati.. kahit gano ka trapik... namiss ko un.... anlayo mo din.. ramdam ko ur more than ok now... mejo nalungkot ako kasi dko magawa un minsan.. pano nman babalik ang sigla ko dati? sa work? hehe... eh nwala na nga sila eh.. pati ikaw nawala.. pati tayo...

it was nice seeing u again.. and it was hurting at the same time....

was it even real?

sakit nman nun... grabe nisip ko kahit para sa pagkakaibigan.. sana manlang nagreply ka. sbhin mo lang.. di ka pede di ka makaalis may lakad ka may gingwa ka... pero yung as in dedmanhin mo ko ng todo.. wow! parang kahit kaibigan dmo ko tinuring. Sakit nman tlga..... haaaay... pinatay mo pa both fones mo... sobrang kelangan kita knina.. ang galing nga eh.. pagdumadating yung mga ganung pgkaktaon na sobrang kelangan tlga kita... solid na wala ka din.. alam mo di nman ako umaasang maging tulad ka pa din ng dati.. pero ang sa kin lang umasa ksi ko na kahit papano kaibigan pa din kita at kahit papano concern ka pa din sa kin. Sobrang sakit lang ksi wala ka tlga pakialam... tama na nga to... tama na. Mula ngayon iiwasan na din kita ng todo. At hayaan mo... kahit masakit sa loob ko.. kahit hirap na hirap akong di ka isipin.. at di ka hanapin... Ok na to. Ayoko nga matapos nang ganito eh. Alam ko tapos na pero ayaw ko nang ganito yung magkakasakitan tayo ng matinde. Kasi ayaw ko magalit eh... Pero parang un ung gs2 mo mangyari. Ayus na to. Dapat ayos na to. kaw tlga... pinaiyak mo nnman ako...

haaaaaaay. di ko naisip kaya mo gawin sakin to.. parang napapaisip tuloy ako... kung totoo pa yung mga akala ko dati. Kung totoo ngang minahal mo ko. O baka natuwa ka lang....

again

goodmorning nget, naisip nanaman kita. kelan kita makakalimutan?
malabo na ata un. miss na miss na kita... alam mo ba un?

i hope ur happy now.

not the good kind

Do you wanna runaway together
I would say it was your best line... ever
Too bad I fell for it
And I walked alone
Waiting for you to come along
Take my tortured heart by the hand
And write me off

Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And It's not the good kind

Oh you forced me to become strong
When I just craved being weak
And you think you know
And I would like to think so
But do you know that when you go
I fall apart

Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And It's not the good kind

No you're not the good kind

I'm tired of hiding
Behind these lying eyes
How I'm tired of this smile
That even I don't recognize

Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And It's not the good kind

finally

that was ur last word...

kahit di ko alam kung anong ibig sabhin nun.

todo iwas ka tlga..

nagulat ako kala ko di kita makikita..

i just kept smiling and i kept myself cool..

i know ur ok... so i should be ok too...

minsan nagigising ako sa gabi tus hnahanap kita..

i cant help myself texting you...

dont worry...

i'll get used to it............


im trying not to.

dont worry.

I'll soon be over it.

i hope its just the drug..

i dont know if its the drug, or it was you. I felt depressed for days now... almost 3 days already. I wasnt feeling ok.. physically the first day, i believe it was the drug, then.. until now. i feel just so lost. I dont know what i want. i tried doing things that would make me feel somehow OK, but still. IM NOT OK.

theres just so many things....

to think about...


and just so many used to's...


its just so hard...

finding myself completely.. without you now.

i waited,, you didnt come..

i was so hurt you didnt show up that day...

when i needed you most..

i had wished you'd come and give me the sign...

that you are the right man for me...

you made me cry.... again.

were not closing doors...
we'll never close doors...

...............

same here..

hurting...

i think of you.

my sunset.

my synset...

You're more beautiful than anything in this world
More precious than the rarest diamond or pearl
And even though we didn't work out together
You're still my sunset-set-set-set
And I know that you and I are two worlds apart
But you'll always be the one to have my heart
I'm gonna love you for now and forever
Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

Your innocent smile used to drive me wild
Even though you ain't innocent at all
And now I feel so stupid cause I'm the only man
That ever loved you even with all your flaws

Even your best friend questioned why
I still wanted to be with you after knowing your past
But she didn't understand in knowing your past
Was why I thought we could past

(What happened to us)
We had something special but
Was I not good enough for youet
(Are you really in love)
Catch some flowers fly because without even trying
I still ended up hurting you and I'm sorry

You're more beautiful than anything in this world
More precious than the rarest diamond or pearl
And even though we didn't work out together
You're still my sunset-set-set-set
And I know that you and I are two worlds apart
But you'll always be the one to have my heart
I'm gonna love you for now and forever
Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

Maybe one day we'll end up talking again
Maybe one day we'll go back to being just friends
Promise to love you baby till my life ends
Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

No matter what happened between me and you
I'll always be the man that you could run to
I loved you then I love you now and forever
Cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set-set

another goodbye

- sobrang badtrip me. mga gantong panahon ko namimis ikaw pero alam kung. malabo. lam kung mahal mo at lam mo dn n mahal kya. Pero pagod n pagod n dn ako eh. Tnx s lhat. Im sori nyt.-1218 am kgbi

ntanggap ko to ... nabasa ko. dko lang sinabi sa knya...

nandyan ka

it had been days... mejo malabo ang utak ko.. iniisip pa din kita.. at tinatanong ko pa din ang sarili ko kung anong nangyari.. nakikita kita pero di ko na alam kung anong mraramdaman ko.. nalulungkot ako pero muka nmang ok ka kaya cguro mas ok na yun... gaya ngayon... nndyan ka...

He doesn't know...

he doesnt even know.. how much he made my life happy... he doesnt even know how much i wanted him..

we talked.. again for the nth time.. he bid farewell. for the nth time it cut like a knife... yes.... again hes out of my life.

he doesnt even know.. how i think of him every night.. and how i wish he's beside me when i sleep.

He doesnt even know how i wait for my cellphone to beep, and see if he would ask me out...

He doesnt even know how i get hurt when he doesnt hold my hands..

He doesnt even know how i thought of him to be my child's father and how he would take care of us...

He doesnt even know how I bleed every time we say goodbye..

He doesnt even know how he changed my system and stole my heart...

He doesnt even know how i hoped to be his wife...

He doesnt even know how loud my heart shouts his name...

He doesnt even know Im crying now and that im in deep pain...

He doesnt even know how i wish... we both live in a different world.. where we could be together...

He just really dont know how much i love him.... and how i wish..


...Sya na lang sana....

im not ok

a: tom ill see u
a: aga me office bukas
t: tlga
t: ?
a: 9 am
t: waw aga nga
t:
a: ayusin ko agad clearance kot om
t: onga
a: baka after pede umuwi ^^
t: wi ka pa?
a: w8 ko kayo
t: mmm
a: di nmn ata nid pumasok bukas
a: kc clearance n eh
t: malaman nten tom
a: eto
a: nag clearance na tpos pasok pa
a: eh pano kung may masira o mwala
a: di n tau liable dun
t: hehe
t: sa bagay
t: eh sna ndun lahat ng pipirma
a: dapt nadun lht
a: kc deadline is 12 pm
t: not later than 12 noon on Jan 14
t: 13 plang tom dba?
a: ay uu
a: 13 p lng pala tom
a: krung krung ko
a: ^^
a: pero clerance n din tom pra wla na
a: cxxx nag clearance n dapt yan di n papasok
t: hehe
a: ingat k pag uwi okie dokie
t: di pa sha tpos
a: happy happy birthday sobra
t: la pko dun eh
t: hehe
a: mit ko glen later
t: happy happy siobra?
a: do u still
a: sobra!!
t: hahhahaha
t: nget nman
a: wana hear it
t: shempre po
a: ?
t: mahal na mahal pa din po kita
a: sarp
a: tom mit
a: wag k nlng maingay
a: hati nlng tau sa gastos tom okie dokie
t: huh? anu kba
t: nget
a: o
t: wag na po
t:
a: okie dokie
t: anu gift mu sken
t: hmf
a: wla p nga ako naiisip
t: yak
t: bt wala pa
a: sa 15 kuna bgay pra doble meaning
: T_T
a:
t: hehehhehehe
a: cia ingat pag uwi
t: opo
a: pag nilamig ka isipin mo nlng hug kita
a: ^^
t:
t: opo
t: pag nilamig ka
t: gamitin mo jacket mo bigay ko sayo
t: ok?
a: okie dokie
t: ako yun
t: hug ko
a: kala ko isipin ko hita mo
t: hhahahhaa
t: naku
a: hirap huminga nun
a: ^^
t: hahhahahha
t: deds
a: anyway enjoy your bday
a: ingat
a: c u tom
t: ok po
t: miss kita
t: di ka ngpakita
t: hmf
t: ge po
a: mis u ill see u tom
t: do u still?
a: nget nmn
a: shempre
a: i still love u
t: ok
t: thankyou
a: c u tom
a: kiss ko
t:
t: mwah
t: love you nget thank you
a: thank u din

song for fish

Part of the List Lyrics

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
(you leave a room)
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
(my mind is where we meet)
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oh-whoa-whoa
Oh-whoa-whoa
Oh-whoa-whoa

Oh-whoa-whoa
Oh-whoa-whoa

99 things I love about you and the single thing I hate Most

1. We make good Conversation

2. You Like Coffee

3. You tried liking rock music at nag headbang ka pa kahit hindi bagay ^^

4. You brought me to my favorite bands( 1^st time with Incubus)

5. You Take care of me when I’m lasing, at pinapakape mo pa ako

6. You listen to my none sense stories pag lasing ( Most of it puro patawa lang)

7. Ang hilig mo mang asar para mapansin ka lang(Effective naman)

8. Ang sarap mo lambingin( Kurutin, suntukin, batukan, kagatin)

9. You’re good in driving ( parang jeepney driver ang galling mung sumingit sa kalye pag traffic.

10. Good Sales and marketing person, ikaw ang na maging top sales person nang 9 -10 consecutive months!

11. Ang korni ng joke mo ( pero nakakatuwa talaga sha promis)

12. Ang angot mo nakakatawa minsan ichura mo.

13. You let me sleep sa room mo tpos dun ka sa labas

14. You look so good sa umaga your half open eyes and garalgal na voice

15. Pag gising ko ok na breakfast hotdog at itlog da best.

16. “Hoy Neo Bumangon kana” ang sweet db.

17. Napansin ko na chu-chuck taylor ka pala – Astig!

18. Di mo ako pauuwiin nang nakainom- papakapihin mo muna ako

19. Sa Puerto, sinubuan mo ako ng mani, kahit ayaw ko na nun kain pa din ako!

20. Nung valentines binigyan mo ako ng bonggang bulaklak( shet)

21. You took the brave move “ tried to kiss me” hala! Ang tapang mo.

22. You buy me chocolates( shet ang saya!)

23. Your hug J

24. Ang lufet ng nose mo. Bonga ang tangos

25. Sobrang pawisin mo dapat my towel ka lagi! Ang hot mo kasi (haha! Korni)

26. Ang hilig mo mag travel sana mga tourist guide na lang tayo sa TV show ng travel chuva, ansaya siguro nun.

27. Ang daldal mo, di ka nauubusan ng, kwento minsan yung mga kwento mo pang matanda, nakaktuwa, andami kong natutuhan :P

28. We understand same language sa trabaho, kahit puro work pag usapan natin patok!

29. When you say “ Amen to that” hehe.. Thank you lord! Sumangayon din.

30. Pag nagdridrive ka, you hold my hands from time to time, pag dmo ko hi-nohold nagtatampo ako ng mga 10%

31. You are most likely me sa family, ang komidyante, mediator, taga kwento, bida, minsan kontrabida.

32. You let me sleep for another 5 mins or 10 or 20 or 2 hours ^^

33. I do feel na proud ka saken, kc gusto mo ko isama sa lakad nyo with your friends.

34. You have that smile na parang walang bukas when your truly happy.

35. Sarap ng hug mo puro spark at positive energy na kukuha ko.

36. Pag lasing ka dumodoble pag ka bulol mo, Ang cute diba? ^^

37. Dapat mas nauna to ditto “ Bulol si nganget ang cute!

38. Ang gwapo mo ngyon, nakaktuwa ka tignan. Nakakainis!

39. You are so passionate

40. Masarap mag lambing syo

41. Kahit nasang luapalop pa ko, isang tawag lang anjan ka na.

42. Kahit magkandaligaw tayo sa kung saang – saang lugar lupalop ng maynila at isang oras mag byahe ng pabalik balik sa lugar na naikot ntin, Ok lang basta kasama kita, Basta my isang stick ng yosi ayos na.

43. Pinilit mo pang ma tripan ang simpson( kahit alam kong di mo magets ang humor ng cartoons n yun) hahaha!

44. Minahal mo si spongebob at Patrick gaya ng pagmamahal ko sa kanila

45. You gave me a ring (1^st sign)

46. You sing like CRAZY sa videoke kahet wala sa tono. GO! ^^

47. You dance like a macho dancer. Ang kaisaisa mong alam na dance shet!shet! kagat labi pa yun.

48. Ang sarap natin mag asaran, parang highschool na may crush sa isat isa! Hahaha (eh obvious naman!)

49. Binigyan mo ko ng jacket ang paborit hoddie.. thank you po…

50. I drag you to my most hazardous moments w/ all that tension, pagtapos ng lahat na masarahan tyo ng mall or maubusan tayo ng stock ng kung anumang kelangan bilhiin. Sasabihin mo lang sken, “ Walang ya kang babae ka” hahaha.

51. You have leraned to appreciate my flaws, oo na, una na yung burara ako! Fine! :P cute naman at ibang kapalpakan ko.

52. You dared to have plans our wedding , dream house, business, kids, vacation,

53. I love the conversations mga tipong nag start sa” Dapat kahit matanda na tayo”..

54. I find it so sweet when you kiss my hand/forehead/shoulders

55. I felt your fear, yung fear mo like my fear, yung mawala ka..

56. You did things not because I told you to. You did things kasi it was for me

57. I love it when you sing kahit paldo lyrics, go lang! then we rocked the world together sa kotse mo talo talo n a, mundo!

58. I asked you to stop smoking na, You did your best to do it. At least di ko nakikita haha..

59. “Bie I love you so much” when you say it. I can feel it, you mean it.

60. 1^st time ko sa Puerto, ikaw kasama ko, 1^st time mo sa baguio ako kasama mo. 1^st time natin mag overnight dito( Tagaytay)

61. Lagi ka nanood ng balita, like you care to the economy of the Philippines, Astig! Di kaso ako ganun ^^

62. You never let me go hungry, in short di mo ako pinapabayaan magutom ever, sobrang factor kaya nun, kasi gutumin ako eh.

63. You support me sa mga lahat ng raket ko sa buhay kahit minsan hassle .. ayos lang.

64. Ang lufet mo kaya pag nag gegel ka!hehe shet ok cge crush kita pag pormado buhok mo.

65. Ibang klase ka din minsan mang gising sa umaga, ang sakit sa ulo!

66. Ang sakit sa ulo nget! Ang sakit sa ulo pag pinapaiyak mo ako. Ang sakit sa dibdib Literal.

67. Shet ang bango mo lalo na pag bagong ligo, sakit sa ulo..sarap umuwi at matulog kung kasama mo.

68. You told me you love me more than you love yourself.. I know it I have felt it.. I believed it.

69. You download new song, old song whatever songs, natuto ka sakin ng mga bagong Kanta Astig!

70. Adik ka

71. You find ways to make me happy simple to complicated

72. You make a video – video ko wow! First time may gumawa ng video para sa akin naiyak ako dun.

73. Dito na iyak ako nung sinend mo yung Hanggang Kailan. Literal na iyak ako nung pinakinggan ko sha.

74. Ayan ang kindat mung walang kapantay, pa cute mong pang artista. Panalo

75. Sa Baguio, nag hold hands tayo kinilig ako.

76. Ayan pag kinasal tayo my theme song na tayo, naiiyak naman ako ngayon..

77. Yung porma mong polo, pants at bangis na sapatos ung pwede ako mag salamin grabe nakakatuwa.

78. Pag pinapayuhan mo ako regarding sa work, Ang sarap tindi ng fortress, Ang Tibay.

79. Ung “ I love u “ sign natin.. ung kamot sa kilay tangina namimis ko yun.

80. You made me feel so beautiful when you say it. When stroke my hair, when you look at me.

81. How concern you are pag di ako nag tetxt or nag paramdam.

82. Kung pano ko minahal ang mga Kanta ng aqualung lalo na yung strange and beautiful and brighter than sunshine.

83. Parang di maalis sa utak ko yung kanta SPARKS ng coldplay. Naiiyak pa ako pag naririnig ko yun..

84. How I prayed na sana tumagal tayo hanggang ultimatum ko.

85. Feeling of uneasiness pag mega yakap ka kay __-.-___.

86. Feeling hurt when you don’t say goodnyt and I love you.

87. Feeling lonely when I hear our song tapos umuulan, were not together.

88. When you Bother to call just to say I love you and gudnyt.

89. Pagiaabot mo yung shampoo at conditioner ko sa banyo.

90. Tuwing pupunta ko sa beach ikaw at ikaw ang maalala ko.

91-99 Nget naiyak na ako, alam mo bang dati akala ko di tayo aabot sa ganto. Kala ko wala lang tus ok na. well gaya nang lagi nating sinasabi. Wla naman sten ang nagplano nito, bigla na lang dumating sa atin. Kahit anong pag iwas umabot sa ganto. Di lang kita minahal, mahal na mahal na kita. Kaya nga ang sakit ng ulo ko eh. Kasi parang nawalan agad ako ng choice. Ngyon di ko alam kung anong mangyayari.. You have had me and you made me realize my worth.. dami ko pang kulang d2

Yung isang Bagay na HATE ABOUT YOU!

YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU THIS MUCH!

78

di ko matatanggi.. hinahanap kita ngayon.. ang hirap.... pero masaya ako.
sobrang iniisip ko nlang yung araw na yun.

78..

before jan7

x: hay
x: alam mo ba
x: may sasabihin ako sayo
BUZZ!!!
a: ano
x: katext ko si xxxx khapon
a: o
a: ano sabi
t: dmo alam?
a: ano?
a: sabi mo my sasbahian k skin
a: ano nga yun
a: di ko p nmn nakakusap c xxxxx eh
t: umm
t: ayun
a: ano?
a: ano nga
t: sbi ksi nya di rin daw nya alam
a: ah ic
kat: ... feeling ko ksi
a: ano?
a: anyway kung about us wag muna isipin yan
t: hindi pwede
t: pwde mo ba nman i-ctrl alt delete lang yun
t: ok ganto
t: feeling ko may iba ka na...
t: ok
t: ayun
t: yun lang
a: ah ic
t: and the hell all i want is just to make to most of our time.. and it made me feel so bad nung ganun na
t: so ayun
t: at ang masaya kasi jan, you would suddenly change right after the moment na ok tayo...
t: so ayun
t: masakit sobra
a: eh kase nget sa totoo lng everytym n kasama kita di ko mapigi;an sarili ko na mahalin ka
a: kaso everytm na mag khiwaly tau
a: sobrang clear nmn na hindi ako
a: msakit din skin na titisin ka noh
a: di mo lng alam
t: wag mo nman ako ganunin
t: ansakit kaya
a: sori
a: hirap n hirap din me titiisinka naiiyak n nga ako khapon
t: hanngang jan 15 nlng tayo mgkikita
t: dko alam kung mgkikita pa tayo
t: tapos ganun pa
a: lam ko yun
a: kya nga ang hirap skin eh
a: kc alm ko yung sitwyason na mangyayri
a: cge log out n muna ako
a: usap ngn tayo tom
a: okie dokie senxa n tlga
a: kung nasasaktan kita
a: masakit din skin
a: pero yun n kc yung dapt nwlan n ako ng hope eh
a: anyway ingat k ciao
a: logout n ako