was it even real?

sakit nman nun... grabe nisip ko kahit para sa pagkakaibigan.. sana manlang nagreply ka. sbhin mo lang.. di ka pede di ka makaalis may lakad ka may gingwa ka... pero yung as in dedmanhin mo ko ng todo.. wow! parang kahit kaibigan dmo ko tinuring. Sakit nman tlga..... haaaay... pinatay mo pa both fones mo... sobrang kelangan kita knina.. ang galing nga eh.. pagdumadating yung mga ganung pgkaktaon na sobrang kelangan tlga kita... solid na wala ka din.. alam mo di nman ako umaasang maging tulad ka pa din ng dati.. pero ang sa kin lang umasa ksi ko na kahit papano kaibigan pa din kita at kahit papano concern ka pa din sa kin. Sobrang sakit lang ksi wala ka tlga pakialam... tama na nga to... tama na. Mula ngayon iiwasan na din kita ng todo. At hayaan mo... kahit masakit sa loob ko.. kahit hirap na hirap akong di ka isipin.. at di ka hanapin... Ok na to. Ayoko nga matapos nang ganito eh. Alam ko tapos na pero ayaw ko nang ganito yung magkakasakitan tayo ng matinde. Kasi ayaw ko magalit eh... Pero parang un ung gs2 mo mangyari. Ayus na to. Dapat ayos na to. kaw tlga... pinaiyak mo nnman ako...

haaaaaaay. di ko naisip kaya mo gawin sakin to.. parang napapaisip tuloy ako... kung totoo pa yung mga akala ko dati. Kung totoo ngang minahal mo ko. O baka natuwa ka lang....

again

goodmorning nget, naisip nanaman kita. kelan kita makakalimutan?
malabo na ata un. miss na miss na kita... alam mo ba un?

i hope ur happy now.

not the good kind

Do you wanna runaway together
I would say it was your best line... ever
Too bad I fell for it
And I walked alone
Waiting for you to come along
Take my tortured heart by the hand
And write me off

Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And It's not the good kind

Oh you forced me to become strong
When I just craved being weak
And you think you know
And I would like to think so
But do you know that when you go
I fall apart

Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And It's not the good kind

No you're not the good kind

I'm tired of hiding
Behind these lying eyes
How I'm tired of this smile
That even I don't recognize

Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And It's not the good kind

finally

that was ur last word...

kahit di ko alam kung anong ibig sabhin nun.

todo iwas ka tlga..

nagulat ako kala ko di kita makikita..

i just kept smiling and i kept myself cool..

i know ur ok... so i should be ok too...

minsan nagigising ako sa gabi tus hnahanap kita..

i cant help myself texting you...

dont worry...

i'll get used to it............


im trying not to.

dont worry.

I'll soon be over it.

i hope its just the drug..

i dont know if its the drug, or it was you. I felt depressed for days now... almost 3 days already. I wasnt feeling ok.. physically the first day, i believe it was the drug, then.. until now. i feel just so lost. I dont know what i want. i tried doing things that would make me feel somehow OK, but still. IM NOT OK.

theres just so many things....

to think about...


and just so many used to's...


its just so hard...

finding myself completely.. without you now.

i waited,, you didnt come..

i was so hurt you didnt show up that day...

when i needed you most..

i had wished you'd come and give me the sign...

that you are the right man for me...

you made me cry.... again.

were not closing doors...
we'll never close doors...